Boundaries/Letting Go

I have a serious problem with people not respecting boundaries. I’m praying that God helps me. I’m trying my best not to act upon my anger towards this chic. I told her to STAY AWAY from my minor children. I made it clear. She had posted a picture of my child (calling him sexy boy) on her social media page with her child at an event.  She’s suppose to be a minister of the gospel, married & calling a minor sexy. It’s not a good look, ijs. It may not seem like a big deal to others but it is to me. I found it offensive as his mother. When it comes to your children, the protecter comes out. She’s a person with issues. My child is a troubled teen (ran away) & I don’t see her helping him when she’s jacked up herself. I see her using him for information, manipulating him against us. She’s obviously not my friend anymore & probably never was (a leech). There’s history here. No matter how I’ve tried to mend things, she holds on. So I threw in the towel on trying…with her. We have to know when to just let ppl go. I’m still learning. She’s shown me that she still needs deliverance, from the dialogue we shared recently. I find it quite disrespectful that I tell her to stay away from my minor kids & she basicly rubs that in my face by posting a pic of my child. Very tender spot. I don’t know how he ended up there with her but as a fellow Christian I would think that she would have some sense to contact me so that there would be understanding & peace amongst us. Nope…she didn’t. Anger! Anger! Anger! But I’m tired of the anger. She has to have a problem with me. She has had issues with certain members of my family in the past and now…me. I kick myself for listening to her talk about my family because that family member (s) had hurt me as well. Trying to be a “friend” (gotta be careful with letting ppl dump on us). However I did try to encourage her to pray, forgive & move on as I was. That was a difficult task. She drained me. I helped her financially, took from my own home & children, etc…seems in vain. So for her to all of a sudden have issues with me, I’m blindsided. But the devil does that. Maybe someone is in her ear…again. She always acted like ppl were out to get her, talking about her, yada, yada, yada, now I guess I’m a part of those so called people. I see I’m not fighting with a person. But with spirits. Jealousy, gossip, bitterness, anger, unforgiveness & Lord knows what else. And those spirits want to jump on me. I must be careful & fight the right way. My fists won’t do it. I gotta pray & possibly fast for her. Yes, I want her out of my family. She’s tied in through her kids being God children to my family member, whom she despised (twisted business). Well, I can’t cut that part out but I can pray that her heart changes, she’s filled with the holy spirit, that she forgives & too…she leaves my immediate family alone. I received a call from another family member, asking me if they can do something for my child, that’s called respect. They know it’s touchy. I as a mature adult, just couldn’t bypass speaking with the parents before involving myself with anyone’s child especially when they’re troubled. This chic here, I would think she’ll get it since she’s a mom now, smh. She claimed she did. Another lieThe devil doesn’t care. He knows what angers us. She’s suppose to be a woman of God but I see she needs serious prayer. But why from me Lord? I do not want to but I believe if I don’t, God will continue to put her on my mind & in my spirit (unless she done put roots on me). I want to ignore her. I’ve had dreams about her. I think those were warnings. Now let me go back…this is the 2nd child she’s engaged. Physically & through messages on social media. After the 1st time was when  I told her to leave them alone. Thought she got the drift. Something may be wrong upstairs. I can’t beat it in her. I gotta give this to God. It’s extremely hard. This could be a set up to lose my life, everything I’ve built. I gotta let the spirit guide me, not flesh. It’s like torture. Oh my God! I said, “Okay God! I give up! I’ll pray for my enemy. Help me.” Who wants to pray for an enemy really? I don’t hate her but she’s making it hard not to, I tell you that. I can’t help but think she hates me. She won’t admit it if she does, of course. That’s why I call her an enemy. I’m praying for compassion in my heart for her so that I can pray right. I don’t want anything back firing on me. This truly is a growing pain. I’m going higher in God. This is to stunt me. We talk the talk but dont want to walk. I’m real. I cannot preach to others & won’t come subject to the same instructions. Ugh! Imma pray for the evil in this woman that she might be blind to (she could be comfortable with it too), to loose her and for my family to not be a target. Keeping my mind on the good in my life & not the bad. If I dont focus, the devil wins. Can’t let that happen!

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Experiencing financial spats with the spouse. At one moment I think we’re on one accord and then something goes left. So now we’re at the crossroads, actually been at the crossroads of is this you or the devil? We be ready to say it’s the devil and sometimes  it’s just us. But we have to know the difference. When we begin to walk with Christ and He blesses us with spiritual sight, we will pick up on things.  We have to know what to pray for.  I’m just always binding up spirits  for they are always around. But some stuff is just the individual. We have been  raised a certain way and life is also made us a certain way and those things tend to stick with us. But they don’t work anymore once you unite with another. Some things in us just have to change. Most marriages fail due to finances, lack of communication and sex (infidelity or quality/quantity). For anyone who wants to just jump up and get married you might want to think not once but a million times about it. And ask God about your significant other. Get his “stamp of approval”. Once you are tied to that person you are just that, tied. The word says that when a man finds a wife he finds a good thing (Proverbs 18:22). Women, we are a man’s glory (1 Corinthians 11:7). Check this out…our hair is our Glory (1 Corinthians 11:15), lol! All jokes aside…we are to submit one to another. It’s teamwork. Almost every decision is made by the both of you. Now this is the way it should be, is it really tho? One should not enter into a marriage unless they are equally yoked.

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You need to believe in the same thing. Or else you will experience quarrels in the very near future. If you have not hit those speed bumps yet, get ready they are coming. Especially when children are involved. What kind of school you want them to go to, what religion you want them to have, what color nail polish is appropriate for your little girl, if the dress is too short, that demonic logo can’t be on his shirt, etc. I’m just saying, the way that we have been raised especially religiously, can come with some quirky ideas or ways of living. Do you get what I am trying to say? I had a fellow Christian tell me when I was a little girl that blue nail polish was for prostitutes. That impacted me for years. Granted I still wore this blue nail polish from childhood to adulthood but what she said stuck with me until this day. I did not think I was a prostitute, but it showed me how some people just believe differently religiously. I did not believe that I will go to hell because of this nail polish but I think that was a little harsh to tell me at such a young tender age. I digress. So I do not believe that Christians and Buddhist can have a productive marriage. Doesn’t mean they can’t love each other. Just saying, it’s already hard for 2 Christians to agree all the time. Point blank the Bible says don’t be unequally yoked. They can try but those religions will clash eventually. So back to the money. Paying tithes. People have different ways to paying tithes. Numbers 18:25 speaks about 10%. Now is that 10% of your net or 10% of your gross? I believe that the holy spirit will lead you to all truths. So if you don’t have the Holy Spirit you’re walking blind with your eyes wide open. I do it from my gross. I’ve read that years ago when the taxes were being paid differently that it was okay to pay from the net but now, not so much. Something like that. I can’t remember exactly. I just decided that I’d stick with what we’ve been doing. But once husband and wife have made a decision on how they are going to do things, no one should change the rules without speaking to the other. This will cause problems, a break down in the marriage. Teamwork! For true believers the Bible way is the right way. I’m speaking on what I do and it might not work for everyone else. I seek to please God & not myself. In marriage, you work as 1. Back to the money. It also states that if you don’t pay your tithes, you are robbing God and the curses will begin.

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Since you are married, not one but both husband and wife will be cursed. Let’s take it further, the house will be cursed! Whatever blessings that you would have received because you were diligently and rightfully paying your tithes, will no longer be. How bout, you’ll start losing. Not gaining and also losing what you already have acquired! Be careful who you marry. Seriously. God comes first financially. You pay your tithes and then you pay your bills. So if you and your spouse are disagreeing on who comes first, here is another breakdown. Now concerning bills only. If you cannot decide which bill is priority, breakdown . Common sense says that the light bill is more important than a hair-do or a new pair of shoes. But someone out there with strongly disagree. Another breakdown. Learn these things about each other before you tie the knot. Yes, go and get some counseling, you will find yourself disagreeing about things that you never thought you would. But that’s all in life. No marriage is perfect, I don’t care what someone tells you. Remember, they are telling you in part. You cannot listen and watch them for yourselves. So best believe that there are things taking place behind closed doors that people may never share with you. So stop idolizing other people’s lives. Work on your own and pray to God that he helps you. Include him in alllllll things. And at that do not be afraid to share some things, be careful who you share it with though, because your testimony can very well help someone.

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That’s where the Holy Spirit comes in again to guide you on who you should speak to. I’m praying that I and my spouse get on one accord so that our home can be blessed beyond measure. To know better and not do a better it is a sin. That is the word. We keep playing with ourselves, justifying our wrongdoing and thinking that God was still bless us. That’s just stupid. He is not a man that he should lie. God does not lie, man does. So if he says he will discipline you for sin, he will do just that. So why don’t we keep playing these games and lying to ourselves. We hate when our children do it. And guess what, we are his children. So here comes the spankings. So might as well boot that toosh up and get ready for those licks because you knew you were doing wrong. And then love God anyway after the whooping. But we have to work together in a marriage and it can be hard when it seems like one is working harder than the other. And at that, we have been working on one thing for so long it’s like when will the change come, do you not get it yet. Just some frustrations, thoughts, feelings, from the mind of a married person. Anyway, take God with you everywhere you go. Pray without ceasing. Pray for yourself and others. Don’t stop. We need the Lord in our day to day decision making. Especially when those decisions affect our futures.